Crafting Refuge

Cultivating Care

Hi, I’m Chenxing, and I’m so glad you’re here.

In fact, I’m glad both of us are here, because if there’s one thing I’ve learned from immigrant parents, Buddhist studies, hospital chaplaincy, and indoor plants, “Not dead yet!” is nothing to scoff at.

There’s a scene in Celine Song’s film Past Lives when the protagonist explains: “It’s an inyeon if two strangers even walk by each other on the street and their clothes accidentally brush, because it means there must have been something between them in their past lives.” I like to think that 인연 inyeon, from the Chinese 因緣 yīnyuán, can apply even to  asynchronous digital encounters too. After all, there are countless other websites you could be browsing right now (but do stay here a while longer), in which case: I’m grateful for all the causes and conditions that made this moment possible, and I hope we were on good terms in our past lives. (If not, might I suggest that there are better uses of your precious life than leaving negative reviews of my books on Amazon?)

In all seriousness, it does seem like a miracle of karmic affinity to meet on this digital raft of a website in the vast wilds of the world wide oceanwebs. I hope you’ll find your time here worthwhile.
At heart, my writing, public events, and community initiatives are an exploration and cultivation of the liberatory possibilities that emerge at the confluence of Buddhism, art, activism, and spiritual care. When I’m able to let go of impatience and perfectionism (hellooo, not-always-helpful habit energies), I remember to approach the work as an amateur, in the root sense of the word: with love. And curiosity. And playfulness. And indulgence. (Also, profligate use of punctuation.) I’m still learning how to embody the wise words of the high school students of Listening to the Buddhists in Our Backyard (L2BB): “Be comfortable saying ‘I don’t know.’”

I could say more about the pedagogy of listening that animates L2BB, or the kinship-making and lineage-honoring at the core of Roots & Refuge and May We Gather, but it feels more important at this juncture to tell you that I am a lover of snail mail and sloths, yoga and whales, fermentation and friendship, Shanghainese and cello: wonders slow-moving or protean or both. Which is a long way to say, drop me a line if you’re so inclined. I read every message and do my best to respond (albeit sometimes on three-toed-sloth-time).

To answer two more FAQs: 1) It’s hard for me to categorize what kind of Buddhist I am. I’m indebted to Theravada, Mahayana, and Vajrayana practices, teachers, and friends—across space and time, if we want to get really cosmic about it. 2) It’s equally hard for me to call a single place home (unless we count my parents’ cooking as a place, which we probably should). I’ve lived in Shanghai, Pittsburgh, the Seattle suburbs, the San Francisco Bay Area, Phnom Penh, and Bangkok, and am still adapting to seasons here in southeast Michigan, where the ZZ plant that holds down the fort when I’m gone is, astonishingly, not yet dead.

If you’ve read this far, congratulations! You might be a good candidate for my newsletter, Little Buddha Days. Or you might just be really good at scrolling. I commend you either way!
Media & Resources
“Mousey” and “Gumby” were among my many high school nicknames. My teenage self would never have believed you if you told her she would someday speak regularly to audiences intimate and large, connecting with thousands of people along the way.

Turns out, flexibility (see: Gumby) can overcome quiet (hence: Mousey). What my younger self didn’t know was how much fun it can be to tailor each talk to the community on hand, how much of a gift it is to meet with audiences full of curiosity and sincerity and insight.

Below is a sampling of my event videos and media interviews. For the extra credit seekers out there, a more complete list is available on my CV.

Community

Roots & Refuge
a retreat for Asian-heritage writers engaged with Buddhism

Inaugurated in 2023 with a generous grant from the Frederick P. Lenz Foundation for American Buddhism, Roots & Refuge (R&R) is an annual summer retreat for Asian-heritage writers of all genres who engage Buddhism in their creative and spiritual lives. Hosted at the Barre Center for Buddhist Studies (BCBS) in central Massachusetts, the retreat is supported by scholarship funding from the Hemera Foundation, BCBS, and numerous R&R alumni.

If you ask me whether I belong to a writing group, I will tell you about the Roots and Refuge community. It’s an intergenerational, interreligious, intercultural, interracial collective that embodies everything I want to be when I grow up: funny and kind, talented and humble, caring and wise, unruffled and exuberant. By design, our retreat is experimental and participatory, emergent and co-led. To learn more, read Ryan Lee Wong’s “Home-Leaving and Refuge at the First Asian American Buddhist Writing Retreat” and Sophia Mao’s “Stories to Rest Into.” To really learn what it’s like: join us!

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Listening to the Buddhists in Our Backyard
a place-based project of transformative learning

Listening to the Buddhists in Our Backyard (L2BB) reimagines how we teach—and learn—about Buddhism, in and beyond the classroom. L2BB asks: What happens when we center local Buddhist communities? What if people come first, textbooks later? What changes when we focus on the monastics and laypeople of Asian heritage who make up the majority of American Buddhists?

I could spend all day sharing the highlights of L2BB with you: The way it emerged in collaboration with the brilliant educator Andrew Housiaux, who read my first book, Be the Refuge, and decided he was going to transform the way he taught Buddhism to his higher schoolers.  The Cambodian, Chinese, Lao, Thai, and Vietnamese Buddhist temples of the Merrimack Valley in Massachusetts that welcomed us for hours each time we visited. The scholars and practitioners who answered the students’ many questions via online and in-person meetings. The exceptional public-facing work the students produced—even though they weren’t getting a grade for this immersive ten-week learning experience.

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May We Gather
a collaborative project of commemoration and healing

When Duncan Ryuken Williams, Funie Hsu, and I first met on Zoom in 2021 to discuss news reports about the vandalization of Buddhist temples and rising anti-Asian violence across the nation, we wondered how best to respond. As we learned of more fatal attacks on Asian American Buddhists—including Vicha Ratanapakdee in San Francisco and Yong Ae Yue in the Atlanta spa shootings—we felt the need to organize a national ritual of mourning, mending and renewal.

The first May We Gather memorial in honor of Asian American ancestors was held on May 4, 2021. Our host temple, Higashi Honganji in Los Angeles, had been vandalized just a few months prior. The 117-year-old temple was repaired by a groundswell of community support, in time for dozens of Buddhist leaders to take part in a ceremony marking 49 days after the Atlanta spa shootings. With in-person attendance limited due to COVID-19, thousands participated via livestream. Videos and photos of the 2021 ceremony are available on the May We Gather website.

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